Saturday, December 4, 2010
Have You Forgotten me?
Have you forgotten me? It's okay. You don't have to search your memories to remember me. I wasn't that special or extraordinary enough to stand out. I know I never did much to capture your attention. I wasn't like those girls hanging around you all the time. I remember those girls with their slender arms wrapping around you like snakes, their painted mouths, and their blond hair. I remember you with smiles for everyone but me. I was always on the peripheries of your world. I was always on some corner, some street, walking alone. I couldn't compete with all of the girls with their hour glass figures hanging around you. I couldn't compete with your friends who always had something fun for you together. I couldn't compete with those teachers who always called on you in class to say something intelligent. I had nothing to say. I never have anything to say. I have no words of wisdom. I have no words to charm or entice you to me. My lips might as well have been seamed shut because I'm mute when it comes to you or anyone else. I never wanted to be noticed. I never wanted to stand out. I was always afraid that the attention would only magnify my faults. But you never had any faults. You were always perfect. You were the one who always knew the right things to say. You were the one who could charm a rock into being a colorful parakeet. You were the one who intimidated me the most in this terrifying world. It's silly to ask you if you have forgotten me because you would have to known me in order to forget me…and you never knew me. Of course you forgot me.